Thursday, March 28, 2013

Questions


Well it is day three of taking vitamin B6 and I feel awesome. I have been in the best mood the past few days, no raging outbursts. I am still feeling a little drugged up when I get up in the mornings - Mr Man thinks this still might be residual from the concussion from the wreck - concussions will also make you have rages as well...but that would not explain why the B6 is making me feel better. Hard to believe that March is almost over - Sunday is Easter. We don't have any family dinners planned for once in a long time. Mr Man kinda took the joy out of that for me around Thanksgiving. I'm not sure if this is part of menopause but I have been asking myself so many questions such as have you ever analyzed your relationships and thought about the things that you had to give up in order to be in the relationship? Ever question your sanity for accepting certain behaviours? Wonder what happened to your backbone and self-worth? Life is not perfect and people are not perfect and as hard as I have wished and pretended I'm not June Cleaver. Funny thing about running from your past - it always seems to find you - the mind never forgets no matter how hard you try or how deep you try to file it away. Then the doubt comes - are you overreacting? Is this the hormones talking? Are you getting bitter with age? Are you going crazy? Is this really what life is about? I worked so hard for this? Perhaps I have too much time on my hands.... hoping the B6 makes all that go away....









4 comments:

  1. You are fine. Just as you are. I'm almost 68 and I can say there are times to ponder but they do not mean you are any less fine. I find you refreshing and interesting. Maybe if you feel better you will too.

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  2. Thank you Judy. I am hopeful and have faith that God will bring me through this (with the help of angels like yourself) :)

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  3. Stacey I hope you are feeling better- and i a sorry to hear that you are feeling like this. Sometimes we just do- i hve been feeling crappy, tired, bored, upset and i do not know what it is. Maybe i should get me some b6 too. Hang in there.

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    1. You too Lorena, thank you so much!!

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